They just don’t believe black men are worth a damn…. All of us… Not some of us… They point at our worst and claim that its our best. They point at entertainers we hate and claim that’s our intellectual leaders. They see a negative story in the media about black men, it’s the god honest truth. They see negatives stories about black women, it’s slander and we should have understanding and pity for all women no matter what she does.
I am a tired black male.
I am tired of having to prove I exist outside your vacuum of expectations.
I am tired of having to state the difference between black males and Niggas.
I am tired for paying for what some loser did in the past did.
I am tired of being overlooked when you decided to write off all black men
but I wasn’t always tired.
When I was a Black boy I was just disappointed.
I was disappointed that a lot of black girls wanted either the stereotypical black guy or the white boy.
I was disappointed that other girls seem to appreciate me while black girls didn’t seem too.
I was disappointed when the stereotypical black guys gave me props for getting so many non-black girls
but I was more disappointed when the same black girls that over looked me started caring about my dating preference.
I found hope in an African-American studies classroom and I’ve been dating and dealing exclusively with sisters since. I have no regrets, I believe in Black women and I believe in Black love but as my consciousness grows and my reading continues I can only become scared by what I see.
Collectively speaking, There is no love between Black Women and Black Men and it’s a chicken or the egg conversation to figure out who started it.
I am a not a dying breed of Black Man just unsung. I do all I can for black improvement and I honestly try to be the best role model I can in my personal life. I am a part of my community and I give back whenever possible. I do not believe I am rare because my peers are like me and I know networks of men like men but if you let the forums on Beyond Black and White tell the story then Black men like me are already extinct or not doing enough and thus deserve to get punished with every other nigga.